I never know what to say to you when you ask me what's wrong. How can I tell you that you're all I want, and knowing that I can't have you tears me apart?
August 2010
“You should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practise staying strong instead.”
—Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love
Sometimes late at night I think about all the things that have been, all the things that haven't been and all the things yet to be. I wonder if this world will ever make sense to me, if I will ever truly understand anything… and if there’s really anything to understand at all.
“She thinks she’s getting better but really, she’s just getting used to the pain.”
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The first person who's on your mind the moment you open your eyes after a night of sleep is the reason either for your happiness, or pain.
The easiest way to not get hurt is to not care. But that's the hardest thing to do.
“People get stuck in moments. Hearts break and don’t fix easy. Love is nothing easy. It is not cheap. It is the greatest thing that happens on this planet, and so it comes priced as gold. One of my best friends used to sing the words “love is war”. There is the fight for holding on. And the fight for letting go. The hardest thing I have ever experienced is the learning which and when. But I still say it’s worth it, that love is real and possible. There are things worth fighting for, and love is at the top of the list.”
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“You don’t let people in. It’s hard for you and once you do you don’t want to let them go and when they fuck up you’re like “Why did you do that to me? I gave you my feelings. I did everything for you, and you screwed me over.”
—Audrina Patridge
Some of the most comforting words that can be heard are "me too." That moment when you find out that your struggle is also someone else's struggle and that you're not alone, fighting that same battle.
It's funny how one day you feel you'll never be able to live your life without him, and then the next day you’re doing exactly that.
We shouldn't let people who aren't worth it get to us. Focus on people who love and accept as for who we are, and shower them with the love and concern that they deserve.
“You’ll get over it…” It’s the clichés that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because ‘it’ is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The particularness of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no-one else can fit it. Why would I want them to?”
—Jeanette Winterson
Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.
